Stop Hitting Yourself

The bed is warm. The room is not. You're not tired but you can't even bring yourself to try to move. Its not like you had anything important to do today. Or ever. You don't think anyway. Your memory isn't always great. \n\n"We just have to refill our pills today, but thats pretty important. So come on get up."\n\nYou still have at least 5 days of pills left. You stay in bed and [[dream some more|dream]].

Trigger Warnings: Suicide, Self Harm, Eating Disorders, Mental Illness, Poverty

"Good morning Jane. How about we get out of bed and get some yummy breakfast. I think there's still some spam in the fridge. We could have spam and eggs! Sound good?"\n\nYou're Jane. Probably. You open your eyes. Nobody around but stuffed animals and toys that any other 30 year old would be ashamed to surround themselves with. It's cold.\n\n"Come on lets get up" the voice in your head says again.\n\n[[Get out of bed|stayBed]] or [[stay in bed|stayBed]]?\n

Sarah J. Sadie

"Wake up."\n\nDying in bed would be easier. You're worthless trash anyway.\n\n"Jane don't you want breakfast? I'll make you something good." Why do they think you deserve to eat? "Everybody deserves to eat and remember what I taught you."\n\nSlowly it comes to you. With a heavy sigh you repeat "when I feel like I don't deserve to eat is when I should eat the most." Your voice comes out in a dry squeek.\n\n"If you really feel that bad then maybe you should take your pills first. Its ok to take them on an empty stomach." Your pills ARE pretty important. Just thinking about what you were like before your pills makes you want to kill yourself. Or at least go back to sleep.\n\nYou could hit yourself. That would make you feel better. But the voice probably wouldn't like it and you don't need more people hating you.\n\n[[Go back to sleep|stayBed]]\n\n[[Hit yourself?|hit]]\n\n[[Take your pills?|pills]]\n\n[[Get up for breakfast?|breakfast]]\n\n[[Hit yourself?|hit]] \n\n[[Hit yourself?|hit]]\n\n[[Kill yourself?|hit]]\n\n[[Hit yourself?|hit]]

You dream that you are living far in the future inside a giant spaceship making a long, multi-generational, journey to an earth like planet orbiting a distant star. You team up with a giant robot to try to rescue your little sister. However she is already dead. Your family blames you and you die in exile.\n\n"[[Wake up|wakeUp]]."

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